32 weeks.

How Far Along: 32 weeks! Layla girl will be here soon & I'm getting so anxious!

How I'm Feeling: This past week has been INSANE. My "relaxing" week at my house in NC turned out to be quite the opposite. I can breathe now, but the past week I felt incredible stress and anxiety which only gave me more stress worrying about our baby girl. I came back to our home excited to bring Layla's things into her room and relax only to find the house practically destroyed by our house sitter & his dogs. I couldn't and wouldn't bring anything of hers into the house the way it was when we arrived. It's been a really rough week but luckily my mom was here to help & it's basically back to how I left it.

I worried that I was pushing my body physically trying to tackle all of the cleaning & I felt so much anger and stress that my house was in the condition it was in.

I hired a cleaning service who did an AMAZING job cleaning every inch of my house. Carpet cleaners are coming tomorrow...so I feel better knowing I can now bring our baby into our home & it feels like ours again.

My original plans of when I would come back to NC were totally flipped upside down once we got here. My original plan of staying the week turned into a permanent stay. I've had to transfer back to my old OBGYN practice and move back ahead of schedule to allow time to get the house ready for Dylan's homecoming.

I am feeling every 32 weeks of this pregnancy this week. I think Layla is officially up to full capacity in there! Her movements are bigger now & actually painful at times. I'm starting to experience sciatic nerve pain which shoots down my left butt check & makes walking really uncomfortable. I can tell she's compressing my lungs when I'm walking & can even tell when I'm laying down relaxing that I'm short of breath. However, no complaints..I am glad she's growing and active! My mom says she thinks that Layla will be our "wild child" because of how active she is... She almost kicked my dinner plate off my belly last night! She makes me laugh watching some of her crazy moves!

Weight Gain/Loss: I'll weigh at my appointment tomorrow. I've been so busy the past week but I've been making sure to eat healthy and hit my daily calorie intake. 

Cravings: Sanity? A vacation? Gallons of wine? Rough week. 

Gender: Girl ...I'm getting so excited seeing all of her nursery decor come together!

What I Miss: Not much...I'm just getting so excited as these weeks tick by.

What I'm Looking Forward To: A LOT! My baby shower is in a little over a week & I am so excited! Dylan should be home shortly after which will be such a relief. I am so excited to share these last few weeks of pregnancy with him and spend time together. Layla's cloth diapers should be arriving in the next day or two, can't wait to see how cute they are! For all the negativity I have felt this past week, there is SO much to look forward to and I just pray that all continues to go well. Life is unpredictable, I've yet to completely learn the lesson that things don't always go as planned, but I am grateful for all of the support from friends and family! Only good things ahead...

Weekly Wisdom: Listen to your body. If you feel tired & exhausted you're probably doing too much. I know for me, especially when Dylan isn't here, I try and do everything myself and it's been hard stepping back and playing it safe. I can tell when I've pushed myself too hard, ie. when I was vacuuming like a mad woman and started having BH contractions. I'm a control freak & it's hard for me to slow down when I feel like there a million things that have to happen before our baby girl is born but... nothing is more important than staying healthy! I want her to "bake" in there as long as possible!