Our baby girl is officially ONE! It’s so bittersweet. There is a part of me that gets teary eyed looking back on her little squishy days and there is a part of me that is so happy she is in this new, fun phase. Lets be honest, mainly because we actually get sleep now, ha!
This past year was more than I could ever describe or could have imagined. It was full of super high highs and exhaustingly frustrating lows. We never knew the depths of our love until we met this girl who keeps our life so full.
We had her party & some of our family drove up to be here along with some of our friends here! She won’t remember a second of it but we had a great time and I am grateful for everyone who came (and those who were also here in spirit!)
Layla is go-go-go from the minute she wakes up every day until she goes down to bed every night. She's cruising along furniture like a pro & can take a few steps behind her push walker. I'm not sure when she'll take off on her own but maybe in the next few weeks. She is OBSESSED with watching Big Block Sing Song. I hear those songs in my nightmares. We try and limit her screen time but I'm not above turning it on while I get a few things done around the house.
One year is big for both of us. If you had told me a year ago that I would still be breastfeeding, I would have laughed and cried at the same time. Breastfeeding is a personal choice for mamma and baby and do what works for you, your baby, and your family. With that said, I just want to be a voice for those who may be discouraged. I'll just throw this out there and if it sticks, great. You can do it. If you want to do it (and can do it physically) you can do it. There will be people with great intentions who tell you it's okay to stop, and if you want to stop, stop! It's not worth being unhappy. Happy mommy is first and foremost. For me, I tried to stop and I quickly realized I didn't want to. I felt wrong & I felt like it was important enough to me to keep going. Now Layla is one and we could totally quit & we are still going. I'm not sure how long we will continue nursing. I'm sure there will be a time where I realize I'm ready to be done or Layla will decide she is done. I'm not nursing this girl forever but it's doable and manageable for us right now so I'm not fixing what isn't broken. I am so proud of our nursing relationship & it's been such a worthwhile, complicated, special journey for us.
So, anyways....
I think we are both starting to go a little stir crazy & I am so glad that Spring is right around the corner! We are trying out our first Kindermusik class tomorrow! I'm hoping she loves it & I think it will be good for both of us to get out and do some socializing.
I have a feeling nap is almost over so, until next time...
xo
